Friday, August 20, 2004

Shadowy Ruminations 2: Faith

Why can I not find faith?

Is it that elusive? Am I not trusting enough? Why will my heart not be still until I find an answer to every question I have? Why is it that everytime I look for an avenue to unload my burdens I cannot find one? Why am I plagued with sceptism in all the wrong places?

Why do I feel like I'm blinding myself when I try to tell myself to simply just trust? Why do I see His hand in the flow of everyday events, yet still not believe? Why do I refuse to just make life so much simpler by yielding to the repeated invitations to be saved? Why do I worry that it is not His intended path for me?

Is faith really such a rare commodity?

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